Is it normal to have a death wish and to be consumed with the idea of death?
Is it normal to have a death wish and to be consumed with the idea of death? I seem to look for risky behavior all the time and pay for it in bad health? like example, if i shouldn’t take blood pressure pills because it could lower my blood pressure, it makes it a lot more attractive to do? Its like im attracted to things im not allowed to do. anything that will hurt my heart i will do because i like to see how much my body can actually handle. I dont have unprotected sex though because i am still a virgin – so i dont risk in that area. i dont want to pregnant but i like risking my health to the brink of death. I’ve had psychiatric help and they all say its apart of my Borderline Personality Disorder. Is that all this obsession is apart of, my disorder?
Hello. Of course it would be easy to say that, yes, risky behavior is part of Borderline Personality Disorder. And to a certain extent it is. But I think it is important to differentiate between thoughtless risky behavior and calculated risky behavior for thrill seeking. There are many examples of calculated risky behavior such as extreme sports, car racing, contact sports etc… I don’t think these types of behaviors are problematic nor do the participants who engage in these activities suffer from psychiatric problems. There is also the question as to whether or not these activities are just a normal rebellious reaction by a young person. However if the purpose of the activity is to intentionally impose harm to oneself, that would be problematic. So there is a fine line between whether this is a problematic obsession or not. I think you need to speak with your Therapists who are the professionals who are the best qualified to assist you in these matters. Regards